Saturday, December 29, 2012

What I Must Do - Through Him


The year of 2012 was suppose to be about butterflies
I had designated the images 
had posted them
around the social network
And told friends – time to come out of the shell
Time to shift
This will be the year of the butterfly
that breaks free to be a beautiful 
flying wonder
The year was to be about transition
Coming out of the cocoon and of our own will – flying free
I was so certain, that I could do it alone. That I could do it all by myself.
Fly free-
Free into the world of the desert
Free into the world of self discovery.
Placing every idol I could
Before God- meaning
My ‘cause’ – the noble idea of the how politics can save us all
Meaning
My ‘love life’ – the idea that a mere man can save me
Meaning
Me, myself and I. 
Meaning Ego- driven identity
with idols at my behest.

But 2012 was not
because God has other plans
For me to be free- under His Will
For me to succumb to the will of Christ our Lord
And to allow, on my knees, for the Holy Spirit to fill me with joy and understanding

The year started out glamorous and full of potential
Pregnant with my own desires
With a deep need to be accepted to be liked
But then – like a flash of lightning
The whole thing shifted
To the cicada
A somewhat uglier creature
That toils inside the earth for years and years
Only to reach the surface and break free after a struggle
This image – serves an example of what I must do
Struggle against my vanity
Struggle against my pride
Submit to the will of God
And only through Him, out of the struggle – Fly.



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